January 25, 2010 (Monday)

It was such a sad day.
i mean...
being isolated in school is so hard.
i want to laugh with them but i cant, when i still have this LONELINESS inside me...
its just too PAINFUL

after 6 hours, i went out and i tried to look for Nathaniel, my old classmate when i was in 6th grade. i ask him if how was Job. He told me that.. Job thought that i was... PLASTIC

i was shocked... and i was kind of SAD because he thought of me that way... but i didn't let him notice that it just hurt my feelings... then i let him when to the classroom.

i didn't went to our class yet and Kaye saw me.
i told her that, job threat me that way...
then i just suddenly cry...
some of my classmates saw me. and they said

"She's been quiet this past few days and crying too."

then i just kept quiet and went around the school...
then after a while, i also went back...


DISMISSAL 3:30 pm

i went to the court.
then i saw Nathaniel then i tried to talk to him...
i told him that i really want to apologize to Job but just like what he just said, he thought of me as PLASTIC.
then i just suddenly cry cause it really hurts so much.
Nathaniel told me that i must apologize to him immediately but im too scared...
then i also told him that i want JOB to apologize but...
-sigh-
we just want to apologize to each other...
but JOB thought that maybe i will be PLASTIC over him...
but no...
thats not true...
i would be really happy that he forgiven me already.
then he just said, i should apologize. if i make this thing a little longer. it would just gotten worse...

then ive made up my mind.
i will apologize to him...

January 26, 2010 (Tuesday)

EXAM DAY
then i just thought, i will apologize to him.
but no.
i forgot a one thing.
i will apologize to him through letter and will give him what i used to promise him.
what i promised him is to give him Gray's picture in Harvest Moon. and i also added some pictures...
and now.
its decided.
i will apologize to him, TOMORROW!!!

then after dismissal, i went home immediately and fixed my apology letter.
then i thought,

i wish he'll fogive me through this letter...

January 27 2010 (Wedneday)


last day of our exam in 3rd quarter.
i was kind of late but not really
so i went ahead of our line
then i saw Job next to ours.
i was about to give him the letter
but kind of scared...
but...
i promised to myself that i will apologize
so i get the paper and gave it to him
it was like im a TSUNDURE girl
hate it
but im happy that i gave him.

after that
i went to the classroom

i was so alone. as in ISOLATED
but i didn't mind it after all.
then my classmate called my name he said that Nathaniel is looking for me so i went out excitedly then when i saw him
Nathaniel has a food and a letter in it
he told me that it was from Job and im so happy.
i went back to my seat immediately and read the letter.

the letter said: (oh and the picture of the letter later :P)



SORRY!
To: Ate Kimu Haruki
From: ^-^
Takeru Haruki



and i was touched that he has forgiven me.
and i have forgiven him as well.
i was crying alone, without anybody noticing it.
but im really happy...
then i kept it, cause its precious to me. it became precious to me...
and i was really happy...


Note:
other stories of my feelings
please wait for it! ^^

NOTE[translation of the letter]

SORRY!
To: Ate Kimu Haruki
From: ^-^
Takeru Haruki

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