Heeeey!! It's Christmas !! fuck that. there's no christmas in our family. And man seriously it's so depressing.
I woke up by 12pm, my mom's in my room. my brother slept over our laptop, left it open. my dad's no where to be seen, and later on my brother left. my mother's still upstairs, she just comes down if she have to cook or something and here i am... using the computer half the whole day... and updating my blog.

What i did so far today was watch Frankenweenie and i cried a lot. Hug my dogs after that and back to my usual routine. Just downloading my animes. Read Oyasumi Punpun. and my my christmas is fucking depressed. or more like im depressed. i want to die. cuz i just remembered that i have a holiday homework. plus there are some exams waiting for me and fuck this. screw this. seriously.

i dont want to celebrate christmas anymore. oh yea.. i'm an atheist after all.

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( why three??? cuz idk. it was written on my phone. )
My friends and i finally had a get together movie marathon thing. :3 We kind of always make these kind of plans during the coming school breaks or holidays. We had a meet up by 8am and i was the first one to arrive (cuz im the closest) next was William but stupidly of me, i forgot something and i have to go back so i did and WIlliam went straight to Jigga's house then took some things and stuff and my mom asked to buy this and that then after that i went straight to Jigga's and William texted us that Chari's there already and fuck i forgot to again remind her about the Wig but oh well she probably did forgot then there i finally arrived at Jigga's house and right after that Jerome came. then we started watching Insidious 2 and it was good.

After that we watched We're the Millers. Then after that we decided to watch Frozen which was suddenly bringing out of the blue but we still went anyway. We went to SM Fairview and yeah bought tickets and we're already inside and few minutes later Jerome told us that he has to leave and we we're so sorry for him cuz he cant watch Frozen with us and most of all he already paid and we're kinda blaming his parents for surprising him but we (they actually) also thank them for giving us some pizza.

After watching Frozen, which was so worth it but much more worth it (for me) if it was in 3D. oh well. we went back to Jigga's house and watched some Videos of Pewds and copied some movies and after that we went home.

This happened during the 23rd of December.

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this time, it happened during the 20th day of December. and it's the UST's Paskuhan. I'll try to make it short too.
i went to UST by 5pm and good thing i saw Nicole she was able to carry me as my pass. then after that William, Nicole and I meet up and we kinda killed some time in BEATO, or the CFAD building watevs. then we waited for Jerome. While we're waiting i saw some kinda costrippers ( Mitsuki, Mirai and others) and i kinda chat to them cuz im really curious and good thing they're nice but they're also conyo. and i love that Mitsuki costripper's wig so much fak.

Anyway, Jerome finally arrived and we hugged cuz i fucking miss that UP bastard. Then we had a little chat and took some pictures and finally we left the building. It also rained a little. Then we took some pictures around the place. We saw a lot of our old classmates and it's fun. It makes me want to study harder because i really want to transfer in UST so bad. Then there we're so many people already and we're hungry but there's nothing to eat so we went to BonChon to eat and killed some time there and by 10pm we went back to UST for the bands thingy. We we're only able to catch up Rico Blanco and Parokya ni Edgar and wow it was fun despite all the mud thingy and my friend's blaming Nicole.

But all in all it was really fun. We went home by 1am

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i'll make this short.
I went to school by maybe 2-3pm, and i was wearing the La Navalle shirt. Because i thought since it's a "kinda" like christmas party for our school we have to wear our school t-shirts. but it never occurred to me that a normal attire would be okay.
anyway, i arrived at school. the guard let me in. but i suddenly noticed why there are some other students who are just outside and they're not going outside. so after i took a little stroll around the school, i told myself

"I'm done here."

so off i went to the gates and tried to leave but the guard stopped me. i asked him why but he said they just can't let students go out. i was getting pissed and i asked one of the waiting students there. she told me we can't leave until the mass has ended and watdafak mass will start by 4-5pm. and i was seriously pissed i roamed around looking for my classmates. and they were in the library.

(extra: as i was about to go to the library, the guy that im kinda interested was also there. and i was already in the elevator but this stupid girl pressed all the elevator levels and my annoyance just grew stronger so i immediately left the elevator but then he suddenly came in. i was too focused on my annoyance that i totally forgot i want to see him or be with him a little longer which is much to my regret. i don't know where he was going that time because i was in such a panic in looking for my classmates that i went to the library with my bag on then my classmates laughed at me and did i to myself and as i was about to check my bag in he suddenly entered the library and i just thought "wow" cuz seriously, i've been seeing him a lot and i'm just so happy.)

anyway after that library thing, i told my friends to go out and eat cuz i'm fucking hungry and so we left the library and i bought some mcdonalds food that were only available inside our school and went to the knights cafe until we're not allowed to go back to the library anymore and luckily for my friend, her sister's boyfriend kinda fetched her and we we're able to go out and i was able to go home. yay for me. and fuck you Letran.


Oh and this happened last Dec. 18, 2013

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This happened last, Wednesday, December 11th 2013.
I went to school early because i have to check my grades in THEO since i had an incomplete grade. And i think my grade's okay now. Well i got a 77 anyway so.. ==

anyway, i was waiting for my friend, Ciara, and happily, i saw the guy that i'm kinda interested in. ( and what's funny is that i see him a lot these past few days ;u; /coughs ) anyway yeah, i saw him a lot that time. ( and also during Tuesday, and yesterday, Thursday ;u; ) and after that, i forgot.

What i really want to rant about today is about what happened during our Culinary Class. Our leader, Jee Laine, left our macaroni salad recipe at her place so i volunteered to do the research and print it out. I don't mind anyway so yeahp. ( and i like running ) After that, we started working. and again, i get to do the less stuff ( what i meant by that is i'm always on stand by or got nothing to do, in other words, i'm useless ) anyway, after that, they started working while i just roam around asking what i can do and yeah. We mainly failed doing our mayonnaise. And our macaroni salad was okay but idk, i dont like it that much.

By 3pm, we're supposed to be excused to watch a Ballet Show but then our prof didn't allow us, much to the MOST of us, disappointed. So we went back to work.

After that, we're already done and have to present our finished product. And... idk what happened. All i know is that (more like what i remember ) i told our leader that we should start cleaning up so we can go home early. Then she told "Okay go ahead" so i did. And what happened?? I. FUCKING. DID. ALL. THE. WASHING. AND. CLEANING. not a very good team work. And what annoy's me most? is that THEY FUCKING KNOW I'M ALREADY DOING ALL THE CLEANING AND YET THEY JUST STAND THERE AND DO NOTHING. they even ask me if i'm really okay and OF COURSE I'M OKAY THERE'S NOTHING WRONG WITH ME I JUST WANT YOU GUYS TO WORK WITH ME BUT IF YOU DONT WANT IT'S OKAY CUZ I KNOW IF I LEFT MY WORK TO YOU, YOU'LL KEEP THESE UNCLEANED WORKS ALONE!

and they kept telling me to stop cleaning already, they'll do the job for me but meh i protest. man that's really.. urgh. And once i asked our leader what will we do the the macaroni's left then she told me
"If you want to bring it home then do it."
i said "i can't..."
then she said "Well then just leave it be."

but what annoy's the most was her way of saying it and her expression. WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU man i hate you from now on.

But there's was this guy ( which i seriously appreciated ) helped me even a little. Thank you. Unlike my other male groupmates who just looked at me and kept asking me if i'm okay. they were even saying "Mahiya naman kayo kay Ate" and what they're doing?? still standing.

And i don't understand myself why i was still smiling while talking to them, they even told me i'm too nice. TOO NICE. that i should be careful because i might get abused because of my kindness or stuff. But just so you know, i wasn't being nice. I was being myself, with my own selfish reasons in why i'm doing all the cleaning. tch. I may be nice, but not so nice.

That's it i guess.

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I will now summary my experience during the first semester.

During the first day of classes, i was able to "have" a new acquaintance. Her name is Faye. This is how we became acquaintance.

After the first subject we we're dismissed early because we have to attend the mass. And we're kind of walking side by side together during out way out. And we stared at each other.
"Uy Friend"
i burst out laughing. Because i was already feeling that she wanted to talk to me. And so, we became acquaintances. :3 ( and later on became friends but it does took me the whole semester to realize and accept she's a friend because of reasons )

and that was during the first day.

The next coming days were normal. We had our midterms. There are annoying classmates. Annoying people. yeah. nothing great.

One time, i lend Faye my book and when she returned it wow. it's horrible. and i cried. i know it's not something to cry for but that book is a gift to myself. so it means a lot to me. But yeah, i'm through with that.

And another thing is that during our NSTP project thingy, there's this guy that i really well.. not hate but he annoys me. and during that time we're suppose to go to Luneta park ( along with our other groupmates ). Then i said, "I don't know how to go back from there to here."
"Seriously?" our leader said. I nod.
"How about he comes with you?" our leader said and he was talking about that guy.
"NO" I quickly replied. They all looked at me.
"Oh yeah, that's right. You hate me." that guy said. And i quickly replied "Yes" then they all looked at me. Some we're kinda smiling probably because "this is interesting"

then that guy kept asking me why do i hate him but i just annoyingly told him that i have no reason so shut up but he didn't and... yeah. he tried to apologize but i told him he should not apologize because in fact, i should be the one apologizing yet i was such a jerk to him. the thing is... i was never sorry. Because he once asked me that he notice i was avoiding him, though not really, but yeah, kind of.

Ah but things went well. We just never talked.

And lastly, we had our finals. and during the last day of our first semester, our NSTP class, we had this activity that we'll write down our names and pass it to everyone and write what they think about me. Most of what i got was "quiet" and "weird"

and that's it so far. The whole long and short summary of my first semester. Nothing to remember. Nothing to make importance of it. Nothing. One thing is for sure though, i hate my block.

So that's it. It's not that much fun.

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I was officially enrolled in Colegio de San Juan de Letran in Manila. And as much as i hate it, i have no choice. We had this orientation for the freshmen, and it was called Binyag Arriba! it was June 3 & 4. ( Good thing i put important dates on my phone )

During the first day ( June 3 ) of orientation, i don't really remember what happen much anymore but since i have no one to talk to, i just used my phone and go tumblring. And of course, my dash is filled with animes. And someone kinda asked me if i also liked anime then i gladly said yes. Then she asked me if i know SNK and i just screamed ( because during that time, i was really really into snk so yeah. screaming is my way of FEELS ) so yes, i screamed, and of course, some people thought i was weird. And after that, we kinda... sticked together for the rest of the day. Her name is Ciara by the way. ( and we're still friends up to this day :3 )

Then on the second day of the orientation, i... i wore a skirt. == I don't know what's wrong with me, but i did wore a skirt, and it was my first time commuting from home to school. So yes, i wore a skirt, and people we're kinda staring at me. I mean, my hair's dyed in red, i wore contacts, i have an anime (mokona) bagpack, wearing stockings, black skirt, and a red checkered top, for me it's.. well.. suppose to be normal but for THEM... it's not. It's kinda catchy. And i was kinda catchy and out of place. And i was too conscious about it and i swore to myself i'd never wear a skirt to school again. Man i can't wait for the day to end that time. Oh and Ciara and I meet up again and of course, since it's our kinda first ( or second ) meeting, we're both awkward to each other. And after that very day, we had another "little" day's off.

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Hello dear, blog. It has been a very long time.
I last updated you during the times when She and I had a little misunderstanding that make things bigger because of me... and because of someone who wasn't really involved yet WAS involved. But no big deal, i'm through it. I've... ... Anyway what's important is that She and I are back to being gay to each other.

So to this post, it'll be the summary of what happened to my life these past five months and i will separate them by post. :3

So, hello again, i'm slowly coming back.

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