i just watched Rise of the Guardians today!
alone! :3
it was my first time watching alone~~ and tbh.. it's fun. :3
i got to buy food on my own and less expenses.
i didn't watched in IMAX though liek what i always said on my twitter account.

so i arrived early and bought food. Burger.. ohh~~ i miss burgers.
then 10mins before the start of the show, i already went inside the cinema. then i heard the minions singing Banana!! I SERIOUSLY RAN OVER but it's already done.
then i saw Jigs with her mom too. and sissy. :3 i did remember that Jigz gonna watch ROTG with her sissy.
so then it finally started.

OMG JACK FROST FROM THE VERY START!! SO CUTE OMG!! SO HANDSOME!! *A*
got lazy narrating.
but you know the movie was really cool. it was worth a watch.
i couldn't eat well cause i wanna see every seconds of Jack Frost.
his human self isn't so bad too since he just got his hair brown. then still the same.
HE'S STILL HANDSOME OMG

i just like them all~~ ><

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yeah~~ liek the title says so~
So yesterday was our Field Trip and we went to Balanga, Bataan. it was liek the 2nd tip of Luzon. but to my surprise.. it wasn't such a long trip.. ==" i was... really... surprised. ==" maybe cause it's not that traffic but still.. Manila to Bataan? oh well.
i woke up early, 2am. as i woke up, i already took a bath and had everything ready. then i opened the laptop and played a little of Grand Fantasia~
then i left and went to school and stopped by at Mcdonalds~ i was waiting for Clariz but she took a little long. it made me awkward cause i lot of students i saw there we're wearing jeans while i was wearing jogging pants. oh well~ good thing i bought my jeans.
as soon as she came, we ordered stuff and i changed clothes. then as we reached our school, we're.. kinda late already. ==" so yeah~
after that, right on our Bus! we had trouble a little cause it's so (masikip, dunno in eigo) but then it was fixed. the bus' aircon was kinda weak too.. ==" then we had a stopover. then after that we went straight ahead to our destination.
i forgot what it's called but here, i have few pics.


 this is the noodles that some of my classmates really liked. it tastes like biscuits for me. and it's crunchy. BUT I THOUGHT ITS MEANT TO BE EATEN DIRECTLY!! but you can also boil them.. liek make them into pasta.







he's the on who discuss things.








and this is on our way to the next trip. which is...? Mt. Samat. //nods.








on our way there btw (on our first stop) i thought the sunlight will be warm cause it's in a rural area plus that's what the window seems to be showing. but when i left the bus WHOA!! THE SUN RAYS ARE SCORCHING HOT!! *A* good thing Jigz bought a sunblock! XD my skin's becoming so dry.. =="

Labels: EVENTS

yeah~~
as the title says so.
It was Wednesday when this happened. i was so lazy that my mom even "okayed" if i didn't went to school today. but i thought i can't be absent today cause i had Physics and i wanna spend some time with my friends.
so as i went to school, my friends told me that they had 2 and some 4 pick-up lines for our Physics. i only had one (plus i forgot my meaning) and i was so pissed that they didn't told me. It's cause Jiggers told us to just have 1 but instead she had many! so pissed.
then good thing i already bought Roberta's charger so i hand it over to her, but some guys in 4B pulled me inside! >< they we're teasing me.. ==" sheesh.
Then yeah~~ our first subject was P.E
the moment that i saw Nicole trying to just just made me more annoyed at her!! *A* damn it! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!! then i had a silent tantrums there!! UGH
then during our Filipino subject, we had a quiz. and cause i wasn't talking to my friends, i thought i don't need help. but i ran out of lengthwise paper so i just kept on drawing despite that it's a quiz. i didn't asked to have one but William gave me one. i just ignored it. (SHEESH WHAT'S THE FUCKING WRONG WITH ME!! SOMEONE'S ALREADY HELPING ME AND HERE I AM IGNORING THEIR HELP!! DAFUQ THAT'S NOT A GOOD ATTITUDE!)
then i was just quiet the whole day.. ==" good thing's my fringe long, they can't see my eyes. cause i was in a kinda grumpy mode. Jamaica noticed how quiet i am so she tried to talk to me. i just kept on saying few words. cause i don't want to talk much.
Then Physics.. ==" T.Dhorz asked if i'm okay cause of my fringe.. ==" then CLE.. i fell asleep at class! i didn't even noticed. i just noticed when our CLE teacher tapped my arm and said that the Homily's done already. ==" i almost jumped good thing i was calm.
Lunch came.. i didn't eat anything till this morning. Then my classmates asked if i can see just fine cause my fringe's too long. Kevin and Carlo we're those guys who asked. and i don't even know if they're making fun of me. As for me.. i'm not in the whole mood. but i kinda started talking a little. my friends also started eating bread and they we're even offering me some. but i just rejected their offer.. sheesh. to be honest it makes me feel bad. i hope they're not mad at me.. =="
Then time for our practice in Cheerdance. i asked T.Thess if i can go home early but she didn't allow me cause i already went home early yesterday. so pissed again. ==" that i went upstairs while stomping my feet. =="
Then my friends saw me and asked if why i'm still here i told them that our adviser didn't let me. ==" then we just started complaining about today's event that we should go home early cause tomorrow's the field trip and we have to prepare. ==" i started talking to them btw. and they did offer me food again but i just rejected them again.. sigh..
After that i went to FCM with Clariz and William and had my PSP fixed. which made me really happy cause i can finally play and use my PSP and bring it tomorrow on the trip! :3 i put some songs immediately! :3 sigh~~

that's all~
i just wanna say that having this kind of attitude is kind of annoying despite doing it myself.
i just don't know why i'm doing this attitude.

(oh and i did this Nov. 23, 2012)

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings

it was such a fun week~~ :3
Ever since Monday.. my friends and i kept on laughing! it was really fun.
oh and on Monday, we didn't had any cheerdance practice. we even went home early. then Tuesday~~
we started having our practice. i was even forced to dance. good thing i wasn't selected.
but She did. Oh but she backed out right after the next day. then Clariz.. PFFT. her period exploded. XD if you know what i mean~~ then i think William treat me to InfiniTea. though i'm not sure if he really did treat me on this day. i think it was Wednesday..? meeh. i dunno.
Then it was Wednesday.. i think i was late...? we went down. and it was freeplay. sheesh. Oh and we also started having our Physics carol. it was okay. Oh and on this day.. i dunno what happened to me but i was so hyper. SO HYPER I DON'T KNOW WHAT I'M DOING!! *A* I ALSO KEPT ON TALKING FOR 2 STRAIGHT HOURS (It was during our Speech and CAT class) and William just kept on laughing. i think i was trying to...? dunno. all i remember is that i kept on talking to him random stuff. i can't believe that i just did that.. "orz

Oh and during our dismissal time.. i saw Nicole alone so i'm gonna try on messing up with her.  then i slapped her BUT NOT TOO HARD and she was liek "Ouch..." then she kept on holding her cheek and i asked her if she was hurt. then she didn't talked to me anymore! she was liek i was grabbing her hand and she shoved it away! URGH! I WAS SO PISSED THAT I WANNA FUCK HER! but i calmed down that my Hyper mood got lost. then from that onwards.. i got pissed. the whole day. THEN UGH! ON MY WAY HOME, THE HOUSE WAS LOCKED!! FUCK!! *A* i had to stay outside again. AND THAT WAS 3 HOURS!! and during the last minute, I WAS ALREADY IMPATIENT THAT I'M HAVING TANTRUMS!! i even tried to climb it up but my body's too heavy. ==" i also slept there a little. cause i was really sleepy.

Then as my mom came, i immediately took a bath!! and had a little rest. and i think i already finished downloading Grand Fantasia. i had troubles at the start at installing it. but now it's fixed.

Then Thursday.. i think i was 50/50 hyper. according to Jamaica. PFFT. according to her, she said she like me better that way. Haha! i even told her if maybe i'm always like that, i would have gained other friends. But i'm fine with my friends. :3 then i told Jamaica about Nicole. about things that i find it annoying to her. and i also told her that i gave up on Nicole. i don't care on what she do anymore in her life. she's on her own. i gave up! she won't do anything, then fine! be it! i dunno if Jamaica was kinda sad about it, but tch. whatever.

Then we went to the washroom and Nicole happened to be there, she tried to hold my ID but i shoved it away too. ugh. just seeing her made me so mad. even her voice. HER EVERYTHING!! and PFFT. this funny thing during our Physics class when Nicole had her pick-up lines, Clariz wasn't listening to her. and me.. ugh. her expressions we're annoying. then yeah~~

Then Friday. normal day. i think we saw Nicole and her boyfriend flirting each other at the corner of our classroom. and they're hidden. ==" as for Us, we just ate bread and nutella... while in class! LOL! well there's no one there (teacher) during that time anyway~~ so it's okay~ and we had practice. Oh and ... our adviser T.Thess cried cause of someone saying bad things behind her back and she had a fight with Kim [not me,. the teacher] it made me really sad to the point i wanna cry too. cause.. it was my first time seeing her cry.. it pains me. and i thought maybe she really know who said those bad things behind me.

Then yesterday, Saturday. it was our cheerdance practice. i went to Mcdo to meet up with Clariz so that we'll go to school early. so as she arrived, we bought hotcakes. it;s even smiling. see:

then we went to school. Jerome was there.. he's a dancer. Clariz bought her laptop btw. she said she want to install The Sims but.. i dunno how. LOL then we just read USUK doujins. (i also started reading last night~~ :3) then during our practice we saw Nicole.. ==" ugh. then we also saw T.Thess. PFFT. she was supporting us. She's such a tsuntsun. this is our chants btw~~

Then clariz went to my place~ we read more R18 doujins. then i read this doujin in where Alfred went to the outer space then he died after so many years. it almost made me cry but i did my best to hold back. it was really sad... then i suddenly remember the story Voices of a Distant Star. in where this 2 friends actually had feelings for each other. but the girl wishes to be a space warrior something so she left. leaving the guy behind. the guy waited for him for so long. he even got old. and the girl is still the same. the 16 year old that he met.. it's really sad. that the guy got tired waiting. i even remember the girl saw a planet very similar to earth. and they send text messages too. for example, 1 text messages it'll arrive after 3 years. like that.. which is.. really.. so sad. the story of USUK doujin is liek that too.. sigh.. it pains my heart.

then today, Sunday. the moment i woke up, my mom told me we'll be living in the slums next year. cause my dad sold our house. i did my best to not cry but i just can't help it. i hate my dad. i even told my mom i'd better off dead than transfer in the slums. i'd rather not study in college too. i don't care anymore. our live's gone wasted. this is so hard for me..

what should i do...? man...

then field trip is almost coming. i think i should stop cosplaying for good

Labels: 1 week of Memories...

hello dear bloggie! :3
gonna update now~~

on our resumption of classes which was Nov.5, i went to school and i was so surprised to see that i was the earliest one in class! *A* then i was worried on how i would act..
cause i saw my friend's tweets liek they're referring to a particular person~~
then Clariz finally came... she talked to me about HetaDay stuffs, she learned some stuffs. liek how Aura and Melvin had a relationship that caused such a trouble for them. Then Clariz already had plans to cosplay Iggy with Aura and Princess Bubblegum with Melvin~~
Then i told Jigs to let me borrow book 4 of Percy Jackson series. i'm done reading book 3~~ =="
then what else...? it was a normal week. i even told myself i'll earn money but in the end, for that 5 days of school i only saved 200php. *A* then i still have a debt on Nicole.. =="

i already forgot what happened.. i just remember talking about stuffs about Nicole being an issue.

Then Friday, Nov. 9, we had our new sitting arrangement. we're at the window, along with Mastach. my seatmate was William. I'm glad he's my seatmate but for some reason.. sticking with him makes me really realize on how stupid i am. Beside him is Jamello. front of him was Clariz then yeah.
Nicole had to sit with the niners. Oh and Clariz was absent btw... she had to spend her Friday with her mom cause tomorrow (Saturday) her mom will be leaving Phils and work abroad, IN CANADA.

I had plans for tomorrow too~ i'm planning to watch Wreck it Ralph. sadly.. with Nicole. i'm glad i can watch it with someone but.. sigh.. i should have payed my debt on her earlier. and because of that.. i can't buy the wig anymore cause IT WAS GONE OFF AT THE CINEMA!! *A* fuck.. i don't wanna blame her but sometimes i couldn't help myself.. ==" i regret inviting her to be honest.

After watching, we went to see Clariz. she's gonna buy a charger for their laptop. Nicole had to come cause she dunno how to go back home. at first it was awkward. and PFFT. Clariz looked so adorable.. i can see her boobies. XD (cough) anyway our meeting place was at the Burger King. we went outside.. liek the sky garden or something. then she she popped out. then we went to ANNEX. hmmm.. we went to the top floor~~ since we're in the gadget area, it's my time to check out some cheap yet android phones~~ But we went to Octagon first. i saw a pen tablet there that only costs 3.6K!! *A* I WANNA HAVE IT OMG!! i forgot its brand. i also saw a G-Pen brand which costs 6K+. i also saw a WACOM  Bamboo 6K+ too~~ sigh.. ==" Then after that we...? looked for a computer repair shop. then i told Nicole to hold Clariz' bag for a moment cause i wanna check out some phones. i really had no plans to leave them liek.. i had no intention to make them talk to each other. (cause you see.. Clariz kinda don't want to talk to Nicole. then i asked Nicole, before arriving at SM North, why don't she talk to her.. geez. they're such stupid brats. PFFT. sorry) anyway as soon as i left the shop, i had no plans to make them talk. i just realized that they'd be left alone and maybe they would talk. And yeah, they did. as i came back i saw them talking happily. which was nice. It made me thought that Clariz is such a tsun tsun. sheesh~~

so after that, we have to come back after 30mins to reformat her laptop so we had a dairy queen as ...? nothing to eat left. AND THAT WAS MY LAST MONEY!! I REGRET BUYING IT~~ *A* fuck now i really don't have money. ==" so i can't attend the photoshoot tomorrow.. =="

so that's it for the first week of our 3rd quarter. pretty normal. i was actually writing this today, Sunday. WHICH I THOUGHT WAS SATURDAY OMG!! *A* THERE'S ALREADY SCHOOL TOMORROW AND I'M NOT EVEN DOING ANYTHING!! FUCK~ ugh.. this sucks yeah.

it's just good to see they're talking and i hope it'll be alright. i just hate it whenever Nicole don't do anything. it  makes her look liek uh...? dunno the exact word.

Labels: 1 week of Memories..., Extra:

hello there~~
like i said yesterday~~ i'll update my blog today about my sembreak memories.

let's start last Tuesday, Oct.30, 2012,
i was about to meet with someone cause he said he's sure he's gonna buy my PSP camera.
i went there with Nicole, it's in Trinoma.
as we went there, HE WAS FUCKING NOT THERE!!
i wasn't that upset at first.. but what i really need is money.
though i still have 300php, i wasn't in the mood to get mad.
so we ate at Burger King. it was.. okay. i was full.
then we roamed around.. In the end, Nicole treated me to the cinemas.. =="
now i have a dept on her. =="
we watched a local movie despite that i promised i'll never watch Local movies.
we watched "This Guy's In Love with You, Mare"
it was okay. it's funny.

then yeah~ we went home.
as i went home, i was once again stuck out side again.. *A*
luckily my cousin came home early so i got in.

so there.. that's it.

then last Friday (Nov. 2, 2012)
hmm we went to our relatives and it's so fucking boring.

then supposed to be today..
i was supposed to go to the mall to watch Wreck it Ralph.
but unfortunately i didn't. why?
cause my 3 FRIENDS watched it themselves.
and here i am.. even though i was the one who invited them to watch it, i was the one who wasn't there all along.
man would you believe that? ugh.
i was seriously sad about it. liek disappointed.
like why did they ever became my friends? do they even worry about me?
and ugh.. it hurts so much seeing their tweets.

and no dear bloggy, this is not a drama. =="
you know.. sometimes i really have to say that cause sometimes that's what other people out there thinks of this kind of shit and thinks it's just drama. ugh..
probably because they're so smart and rich that they don't have to worry for someone stupid as me.

and luckily i had this account private.
damn it.. really..
why did they became my friends...
sometimes i do regret meeting them but.. sigh.
this is such a bad thing to say but they all have their own worlds.
i know i know.. i do have my own.
sheesh.. we never collide.

and i don't wanna be plastic to them, so i'm still.. sigh.
i'm just tired of this.
i'm tired of being lonely. but guess i can't do anything about it.
with this only circle of friends that i have... i am nothing. i'm useless.

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings

hey guys~~ :3
just REALLY wanna say this...
you see... i notice this kind of thing to my friends which is not supposed to be.
i understand how they feel but i still think it's not right

wow.. that kind of sound liek JUSTICE like

//cough
so anyway, i have this dear friend who's so mad at my other friend despite of them being friends.
sorry guys.. you do know who you guys are.. so i'm sorry
and to be honest.. it's so obvious.
i kept telling her to be NOT LIKE THAT cause it's not so good. yes yes i know.. i have no right to say that cause i do sometimes feel like that but.. i'm controlling myself. plus i pity them.

it's just so sad she's being filled with anger. that's not so good.
then my other friend... sigh.. i'm pretty sure she knows. AND DOING THIS POST WILL MAKE IT EVEN MORE OBVIOUS!! wae..

anyway what i'm trying to say is that i'm so sad at what's happening...
i don't like what's going on.

so let's see..
to my friend who's so full of anger,
     dang. i forgot what i'm about to say
opps. i just remembered. [took that a while]
//cough
if you really hate her that much, you should tell her what you feel.
i know it's obvious, but YOU'RE MAKING IT OBVIOUS ON PURPOSE
especially online.. =="
i sometimes stalk them and see how they are.
i can see her tweets saying liek Who the fuck cares, i hate drama people
something like that

and to my friend who's just letting things go,
     that's not good. you should let what others know on what they think about you.
because from the way you're doing it, they kept on saying bad things about you.
and i know that's now how it is but even me, myself, can't help but think that way.
just because we don't like some of your ways of being friendly, and being kinda... flirty on some of our classmates, you should at least hang out with us.
and it's not our fault for thinking this way. and sorry to say this but we can't help but blame you.

please.. do not think i'm mad at you both. i'm just saying this cause i really feel sad about it.

oh and i still have something to say to my friend who's just letting things go~
don't just let things be as it is. if you think there's something wrong, especially about your friends, you should at least do something. and if you thought it's not really how it should be anymore then accept the fact WE BOTH CHANGED.
Which is a sad thing.
we all change. and that's a fact.
we don't notice it, but others do. and it's mostly like that.

so just please be honest with yourselves. don't let things be like this.
don't say such sad things behind each others backs..
and i'm not siding anyone. i just want to be both of your friends who you can trust.

but sometimes i can't help but feel so affected. even though it's not me.


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EXTRA:

hmm..
i read my friend's tweets about them going to Trinoma tomorrow. i dunno why but it made me so sad.
TBH i wanna go with them. and since i invited Her about our plan they.. sigh.
obviously don't wanna be with her. especially her.

but i dunno wae.. it suddenly sinked to me that they don't want to be with me.
I DUNNO WHUT DA HELL IS WRONG WITH MY BRAIN THAT I THOUGHT OF THAT!! *A*
i'm being paranoid again..
i'm such a sad person huh..

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings