Himawari, a happy and cheerful name. But why is it suffering?
POSTED ON Sunday, January 3, 2010 AT 12:12 AM \\
Himawari
a happy and cheerful name.
that fits a cheerful and innocent girl.
it means "Sunflower"
they must smile to their fullest and let them think they were really happy...
my screen name is Himawari.
because i loved Himawari or Sunflowers..
but...
as time goes bye...
i realized something
why am i crying? why is this emotion called "LONELINESS" flowing over me?
that's what i thought...
then i wonder?
why did i choose this name? Himawari? if im all crying here all alone...
a person who has a name of Himawari suppose to smile at their all best...
i mean, with their real smile...
but why am i here?
crying?
is it because im lonely?
yes...
i am lonely...
-crying so hard-
i want to be happy!
-crying so hard-
but how can i be happy if i have this place?
if i have this place in my heart called loneliness!
-crying so hard-
sometimes makes me think
-crying so hard-
most of the time...
im telling them...
im fine really...
but the real thing...
the real thing..
was hidden under my mask...
i was crying so hard...
what can i do...
to find that place?
how can i become a lively person that i use to be again?
i want to show my real self?
but how if those two personalities are really me?
~to be continued~
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A lonely girl who has a lonely life. nothing more.