A missing Item...
POSTED ON Tuesday, February 2, 2010 AT 5:36 PM \\
February 2 2010
Tuesday

hmm...
it was like a NORMAL as in NORMAL these past few days.
like...
being ALONE ,ISOLATED again...
-sigh-
its just so terrible...
i cant even think of any reason why im not SATISFIED yet...
is it because we didn't made up yet...
no...
i think its not THAT the reason...

its like there's something else...
i just dont know what is that thing...

so...
i've been sad...
i mean...
yeah SAD...

but hey...
i didn't thought that sitting alone in the CORNER was kind of fun.
well anyways, lets forget about it...

here are my problems...

1. DONT KNOW WHATS MAKING ME SAD.
or something like "Why am i sad even though i made up with them already?" something like that.
2. MY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS ARE KILLING ME!!!
lets say, my mind is full of " MINUS that! and MINUS that! equals to MINUS THAT!!! no POSITIVE sign on my plans... well except for my academics! ^^
3. CAN'T EVEN SMILE!!!
or something like cant laugh... or... YEAH THATS IT, ALRIGHT!!!
-sigh-
even though its very funny, i cant laugh, or something like
i'll laugh but not too loud like before...
i cant even think of smiling...

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i mean...
smiling while there's something painful?

i use to prefer that way...
but in what just happen...
i cant do it anymore.

4. THINKS OF ENDING HER LIFE!!!
well its just my opinion.
because of TOO many problems that i have, i just dont know what to do anymore...
its just too painful...

-sigh-

all i know...
is that...

i just cant turn myself into ACTIVE MODE

cause there's still something missing...

thats all for today.

look forward for the others okay! ^^

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