Okay minna im back for the mean time... i just really feel sad that i want to share it..
okay so here it is...

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June 15, 2010 [Tuesday]

I didn't sleep since that evening. i just managed to sleep like 5 minutes, then my mother knocked at my door.
(anyways during those time, i was editing a pic and also i was downloading a Kobato episode.)

this is the one i edited:


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well, it took 3 hours to download a Kobato episode... so after i downloaded it, i went to bed and listen some songs.
then just suddenly, i feel asleep a little. for 5 mins.

then during 5:49, i went to school, i thought im already late, but im too early. i searched for my name, my best friends name (the guy) and Katherine's name. sigh~ too bad me and Kathy are not classmates. but i can't find Job's name.
i checked it many times but its not really there.

Then when we went to our class, we introduced ourselves like usual. but before when im introducing, im always shy and ah.. like never talks. but this time, it was a cheerful and a happy person! ^^ im glad i made it!

then little by little i realized, he's really not in this school anymore, then i really felt sad.

Then before dismissal time, we already had a Class Officer. I became the President (again like last year.) and im really glad.
Then during dismissal time, i was uh~ near to Paolo... but i kind of distanced myself to him. (cause we use to have an argument. i mean a misunderstanding and we didn't talk for 3-4 months. but at the end of the school year LAST YEAR. i apologized to him [i even shouted it out on the hallway then i went to Job's classroom. thats last school year])

Then when i reached home, i was ah... i called Katherine cause she forgot my drawing. i mean, i let her borrow all my artworks that i kept this past 3 months. So want to ask some, but i really like all those. So i told her, i'll just make her a new artwork of it. but sigh~ but then she said that she noticed i was kind of sad when i was trying to get my notebook then suddenly i cried cause Job's gone... sigh...

then thats it...

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-cries-
i really miss him...
he's my only reason for joining the Writers Club..

sigh~ now what should i do...
sigh~ if ever he'll come back, i will really smack him down! -sniff-

Labels: My Feelings