I Can't Believe it... It Hurts me too much...
POSTED ON Tuesday, September 14, 2010 AT 6:02 PM \\
Hey Bloggie-chan... it's been a while huh.
i haven't updated my blog for months...

but now i'm gonna do it.

lets start with Last Week. No Specific Date Cause i forgot.

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Last Week. Tuesday i guess. Maybe Sept. 7, 2010. not sure.

We we're at the Bathroom, of course me just passing by. With 2 of my friends named Gold and Judissu-chan. We we're fixing our hair, then suddenly, Juudisu-chan opened the Door from the Girls Washroom. Then Suddenly Gold said "Hey, maybe you opened the door cause you want Chris to notice you eh.. TeeHee!" She said. Then Judissu-chan suddenly falls silent... then i told her to close the door. she closed it and she's still quiet, then walks out. I thought she was mad at me cause of what i said, then Gold said "Don't mind her, she's always like that... She'll also talk to me later. ^^" Then we went back to the Classroom.

When we're inside, Judissu-chan ignored Gold, but Judissu-chan still talked to me. i Know Myself that it was just a silly joke or let's just say we're kinda teasing her... demo, uh.. i really can't explain too much. since i don't really know the Whole Story.

The Next day, September 8, 2010. 
They still didn't talk, and with that, Judissu-chan had a companion. and Thats Gelli-chan. Since then, they didn't talk, or just ignored her. At first i was just laughing at them, cause its kinda silly. 

After some few days that pass, its kinda getting worse, so i'm sad about it.

Then Last Friday i think or Saturday. Let's say September 9-11, 2010.

Judissu-chan PM'ed me on Twitter. So i did her instructions.

So i chatted with her a little while, and talked about OUR Problems with her...
I don't have problems with her, maybe just Gold. So i told some few words that Gold told me about her. Then BLAH BLAH BLAH. its too long.

I'll Skip that part.

Then September 13, 2010.
Morning.

I was kind of early when i arrived at school.
so, i greeted Gelli-chan. And she was talking to me too.
Then when we went upstairs, Then Gold came. 

Like before, Gelli-chan kinda ignored her.
So when its Recess, Gold talked to me. And she talked to me about what Judissu-chan PM'ed her. Then BLAH BLAH BLAH.

Then while i was talking to her, i saw Gelli-chan, i greeted her, but she didn't greeted me back. i thought maybe she didn't heard me, so i greeted her again. but then i thought, maybe she didn't hear me again...

She some other time. I was walking with Gold and passed them. I greeted them, but then they ignored me. so i already had my thoughts

"Why? Why are they Ignoring me? Did i do something wrong? Or ... Ah! Maybe... Maybe they thought i was taking side at you... No. They're wrong. They Misunderstood it... i'm not taking sides at anyone.. i just want to help, i want them to be happy again, i want everyone to smile, i want everything to return to normal..." 

and so it begins. XPP 
I mean, My suspicions continued.

And Last night, i talked to my Long Time Best Friend, Lance.
He told me that he's going to transfer in Canada, i felt so sad, cause we never saw each other.. i wanted to hug him... i almost cried...

And so i told him my problem, he tried to help, but his suggestions we're kinda lame. Sorry Lance.

Then the Next Day.

September 14, 2010. Ivan's Bday.

They still ignore me. And me all alone, sad. Quiet. And Gold was Absent. FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 11th Grade. I dunno why, but maybe because of that issue. And since i'm alone, i just keep drawing. I notice that i can't concentrate, and the only thing that appears on my head during that time is Loneliness. And my Drawings always appears to be Lonely... Crying. I thought at first 

"Why are they Crying...? Is it because i'm lonely too, that i want to Cry but i don't want them to show it so that i just let my Drawings cry... Yeah.. Maybe that's it."

Then i continued Drawing. 

But during School time, i wanted to cry... but i don't want to. I don't want them to show them that i'm crying.

So during Dismissal, I Confronted them. But really, my legs we're shaking.

But then, i still did it. Cause i want to know what's there problem. So i went to them, and talked to them and apologized, even though i don't know what i did.

I apologized like a Japanese Person. I bowed my head and keep apologizing. Then went home, but the called me back, so i went back to the Canteen. They told me that they we're ignoring me cause they thought i was taking sides to Gold. I told them 

"It's wrong. I dont want to take any sides among of you. To tell you the truth, i want to help you all, cause i want things to turn back to normal..."

They we're saying something. But then i wanted to cry so i told them..

"Augh... You're too much... This is what i hate most..." 

So i walked out. And went home...

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Then that ends for the story right now...

Aren't they so LOW PEOPLE...
i know i'm saying bad things right now...
But it really hurts me so much..

i'm so disappointed at what i happen...

I knew it. My Thought Was right... 
Sigh.. I wish they know me more better...

Then that means, they really don't know who i am huh...

Thats such a pity..
i pity myself..

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