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"Friends, Questions, Trust"

POSTED ON Friday, January 21, 2011 AT 1:39 PM \\

Okay, this is actually about my dream last few days.
so like in the title, its about my dream that's about friends, questions and trust..
its kinda sad if you ask me. anyway~

let's start.

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"Friends"

i think this happened last "January 17-18, 2011"

Frist Scene:

i was at our school. (of course.) then suddenly,

i was surprised that i was part of the MTAP. so i went to the clubhouse (where there's really no such thing at our school ground.)

then when i entered, i saw few of my classmates there.

Second Scene:

Suddenly, the normal boring day changed. it became filled with Anger.

our club proctor (which is actually our class adviser in real life) is suddenly scolding at us for some reason.

and me sitting there, without knowing what's actually going on.

after he scold us, he walked out with a huge SLAM" at the door.

Third Scene:

After our club proctor walked out, suddenly our School's assistant principal came and scolded us again for some reason! ><

then after she scolded us i raised my hand and said "excuse me, i'm actually not part of MTAP..."

then she said "oh is that so. then you can go out."

so i went out THROUGH THE WINDOW!!!! (the heck!? why such place!)

Fourth Scene:

After i went out through the window, my close friend (classmate as well) went out THROUGH THE DOOR!!! (what the!?)

Then she told me that she'd come with me.

By the way, the surrounding turned into something like a dessert place, of course filled with sand.

so we went to our school court. and there's a somethinkg like a party there. there we're some preschoolers there. and FOOD! yay! XDD

then i said "i'm gonna steal a few! XDD" then i changed my mind suddenly.

then for some reason, i heard a sound "CLICK" it says.

then i turned around~ there i saw my best friend, Takeru-kun, who is about to eat a sandwich.

i said "Hey! Wait!" because he suddenly ran away.

i grabbed his hand and then

The End

Weird isn't? actually, at the end of the 4th scene, when i saw my best friend, i was about to cry and smiling. i was also smiling when i grabbed my hand when suddenly i woke up. i wonder what's my dream trying to say~

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"Questions"

I think this happend last Januaru 18, 2011

it actually contains just one scence. though i'm not sure if only i just forgot some.

First Scene:

I was at our clubroom, i'm part of the IT Club (Information Techno)

and from there, everyone from the club was there. Except for the two extra 9th grade girls.

So i stand up and said "Who's ______" i forgot the name that i said. (its like an 80's name)

then the 9th grade girl said "him"

then that guy (he's a 9th grade as well. kinda cute...) walked out and went to another computer.

i wonder why, so i just went back to my sit, next to my classmate.

then that 9th grade guy (i forgot his name.. ==") said "what about you?"

then suddenly i said "_______" (its my real name.) very loud!!! (the heck!? why would i do that in front of many people!?)

and during that time, i was smiling! (what am i smiling at!?)

then he looked at me and then~

The End

i don't why he was there in my dream. AND WHY WOULD I SHOUT OUT LOUD MY NAME!!! that's just so not me! Honestly! Jeez, dreams are really weird.. =="

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"Trust"

It happen, just this morning i guess.. or not..? =="

January 20 or 21, 2011.

i think it consist of 2-3 scenes.

First Scene:

Its the opening ceremony of my School. (which means, i didn't transfer out... ==" damn. i have the feeling that this will happen.)

I was at an Auditorium with everyone. i was sitting beside Carol-chan. and the surrounding was like a Forest like theme.

and there we're some torches there too!!

anyway~ from there, i was sitting lonely there, cause i didn't transfer. and if i remember, i think i said

"as i thought. i wouldn't transfer schools.. =="

(by the way, there wasn't really an auditorium at our school.. ==" its a dream okay. so anything can happen.)

Second Scene:

The scene suddenly changed. but still in the..? ==" like a forest like theme. but in addition, there we're indians there!

they we're trying to catch me! XDD dunno why.

Third Scene:

suddenly, the scene changed. I was already right in front of my another bestie, Kyashii-chan.

then i asked her "hey, do you have a boyfriend already..?"

she answered "i dunno"

then i said "of come on! tell me! >:3 i won't tell anyone, i promise."

"i dunno okay~" she said again.

then i said "don't you trust me?"

then she said "no." <--- Straightforwardly.

i was surpised, shocked. and hurt.

i walked passed her then quietly crying.

Fourth Scene:

As i was walking, crying silently, with a bread with ham on my mouth, my old crush and that 9th grader i was talking about a while ago~

he saw me crying while covering my face a lil~

he came running to me, and said "Hey!?"

and because i'm so sad, i didn't mind him.

and suddenly he said "HEY! I TOLD YOU I'M CALLING YOU OUT!!!"

then he threw me a bottle of water. as in the water inside then he threw me the empty bottle.

and of course, i can't just stand there. so i said

"WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM!?!?" <--- Still crying.

then i throw the empty bottle to him, but i aimed it weakly.

then he said "Why are you crying"

The End

When he asked me why i was crying, he was like, so worried why i'm crying. but then i just woke up. anyway~ before i woke up, i went up, like in a forest, full of something something that i can't explain..

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Well that's it.

it's pretty sad... some of it..

just wanna share it though.

i don't want to forgot such dreams.

written on January 21, 2011

Friday~ Last day of Exam

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings