Heya! it's me again..

You know.. i had this weird and annoying yet sad dream.

okay~ lemme tell you what it is about...


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This happened Last April 6 i think.
Of course i was sleeping that time.

The only thing i remember was, its summer at our school. we're wearing our Normal clothes. (not school uniform)
then in our Classroom, one of the past advisers of 3rd year was having a good time at our class. i just went inside the classroom, cause i just went to the girls washroom.

My things we're kinda near to the teachers sit. so i went there.

While that teacher was having a good time, suddenly he asked me "What year will you be next year?"
i said "3rd year, sir." then suddenly he told me "Forget about your studies! Don't study anymore!" he said while laughing.

I was surprised that i don't know what to do. i just said "I can't!! I have to fulfill my dream no matter what!" then i suddenly sat down and cry.

Then everyone was staring at me and their faces was like

agh! she's crying again!? what the hell now!?


then a guy went near me and suddenly said

"if you hadn't pulled Judith that time....." then i said "I did that for her sake!"

but then i thought when did i pull her? i can never do that to her.. and why blurt it out of a sudden..


then i just ran outside and continue to cry there until i finally woke up.

when i woke up, i was kinda having a hard time breathing. like i was really running, like in my dream. then suddenly i said "what the heck was that...? that's.... so sad.."

Then suddenly i drop a tear from my 2 eyes.

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after that, i kept thinking about it. i was being negative again and was like

was my dream really that hard to achieve!? what will happen to me!? it's the only thing i want and yet...


so in other words, i was being hopeless....
i wonder what its trying to say... =="

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings