Questions..
POSTED ON Saturday, June 18, 2011 AT 6:16 PM \\
I went to our school today.
hmm.. cuz its a Parent Orientation. 
so yeah yah, we ate at some store. had our break fast there.. 
TADAA~ XDD

anyway, during the orientation
[i wasn't listening.]

i was thinking what if our adviser, and our classmates notice that i'm not talking to them.

so i had this imagination.

we we're in a class and the teacher said
"ARE THERE ANY of your classmates that you have troubles with..?"
then they said my name and everyone agreed.

so the teacher let me stand and ask something about me.

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Q1: "Why are you not talking to them? Don't you want to make friends with them?"
A: I don't know
Q2: Do you want them to make friends with you?
A: I don't know.
Q3: Do you want them to hate you?
A: I don't care.
Q4: Do you want them to love you?
A: I don't care.
Q5: Do you want them to leave you?
A: I don't know.
Q6: Do you want them to be with you?
A: I don't know.
Q7: Do you want them to know more about you?
A: I don't know

*Those are my real answers.

So then i suddenly thought what if the teacher say

"Why?"
then i'll say
"I don't know. Maybe because i got used to be alone. " -- Answer for Q1 and Q2.
"Why did you get used to be alone?"
"hmm... maybe cuz i got used to it. I was used to people leaving me alone. so yeah... my friends changed a lot. i was left alone. i can never reach them. Cuz i have my own likes. so..." -- Answer for Q1 and Q2.

"Okay, so why do you don't care if they hate you or not?"
"As i said, cuz i got used to be alone. Besides, i have long patience. what i meant by that, is that i don't easily get mad just cuz they hate me. Maybe i also got used to be being hated. It doesn't even bother me anymore." -- Answer for Q3 and Q4.

"Why you don't want them to be with you or vice versa?"
"hmm.. maybe because there's a possibility that they might change. And if they do, i can never reach their likes anymore. We do have our own likes. I'm not good at other conversations. Cuz all i know is Anime. It'll just make me feel out of place if they talk some random things. And also, if they became important to me, it would be hard for me and probably i'll be hurt. But i wonder about that. Like i said, i got used to be being hurt... so i don't know." -- Answer for Q5 and Q6.

"And Lastly, why do you not know if they want to know about you?"
"Like i said, i don't want someone to be attached or important to me. Actually, i have plans to die. I don't care if they cry or not for me. And because i want to keep my life quiet. Mysterious.."

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so yeah.. those are my reasons. But really.. i don't care... =="

i'm being mean deshou.
i must have such a sad life..

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