today... i.. met with my cosplay friend.
FYI it's a he.

before i left, i changed my normal casual clothes.. i wore glasses.
so before i left my dad asked me who am i going to meet with, to be honest it was supposed to be Celline, a girl. But she cancelled our meeting so i had no choice but to hang out with Carl. fuck i just said his name.

anyway.. so i left. after i arrived in SM... an hour later.. I WAS SO SHOCKED WHEN MY FATHER KNEW THAT I WAS GOING TO MEET WITH A GUY! FUCK!
i mean.. come on!! He's just a friend.. damn.. you don't trust your child.

Then when he arrived i approached him [cuz i was at the food court]
then uh.. we looked around. where did we went again? oh we ate first.
he treat me to Jollibee.. ==" while talking to him.. i was about to cry. cuz of what my father just did.
I leaned my head down and was about to cry.
anyway.. he bought a Chicken Joy for me and an Ice Cream!! *A* but.. i didn't eat a while.. cuz i started crying.
he said i should stop crying... he even tried to give me a fries. LOL!

Oh and i told him if he has a girlfriend he said no. Then i said what about Aya? isn't she your GF? he said no cuz they already broke up last 19 of May. he was so depressed that day he said.

then after that i started eating the food he treated for me.. I DIDN'T GET THE CHANCE TO FINISH IT!! [just the ice cream] CUZ IT WAS LIEK I WAS SO FULL!!! i feel so sorry.. PLUS I LOST THE MONEY HE GAVE ME!!! TT^TT

anyway.. after that we went to timezone.. he was.. uh.. trying to hold my hand. and i was like
"Uh..? What?" He just smiled. sigh..
then after that uh.. we played...? Tekken? i always lost. but at times i won but..i think he's trying to lose in purpose. He's even trying to hold my hand.. sigh..

oh and at times.. he would hold my arm kinda.. tight and.. sometimes pinch me lightly.

Oh and.. while we're at Timezone.. he was.. trying to uh.. take a prize. when he got one.. he gave them to me immediately. Then after that he said we should look around. So i told him if we can visit a bookstore first. so we did..

Then after that we looked around again. we went to the top floor. he played uh.. what's this? Pump and ...? something. i just... kept looking at him cuz.. LOL! i dunno what to play~

then after that we went to the other side of the place. we...? i mean he played something like basketball and if he shoots he gets a prize. i asked for whom is the prize? i thought it for the kids cuz those kids parents are asking him to shoot for them. After he had the prize he said
"Joke! This was really for you!" i said "WHAT!? WHY!? You're giving me too much already!" then he said
"Just take it. It's really for you" so.. i had no choice.. ==" he was being too kind to me.

then i thought we should go home cause i need to talk to my dad. then he asked where's the Food Court. i said we just passed it already. then we went back then. We sit and he let me.. hear his... uh.. Korean songs.
i was.. too close to him.. ==" and.. he keeps touching my hair.. he also keeps my fringe is cute! *A*

then suddenly i thought "I should tell him. No problem"
then i said "Hey.. you don't like me anyway? Right?" then he said "I do."
then i was liek "HUH?" then i said "Huh? oh... uh.. you mean as a friend right?"
Then he said "No. i do like you."

i was so shocked!! i can't believe that my weird thoughts are so right!! FIGURE'S WHY HE'S SO KIND TO ME SINCE LAST SATURDAY!

then i said "....? Why? Why do you like me?" he said "Don't ask about it anymore..."
i also keep saying "You're serious? really?" then he said yeah he is serious.
then i said "What about your GF? Aya?" then he said "We're really break already. They just don't believe me"
so i just took a deep breath cuz.. i really can't believe it.
then he suddenly said "It wouldn't be really nice if he told me that he likes me on the net so it has to be personal" then i just took another deep breath.

[man.. i'm tired from crying]

so then after that.. uh.. we walked out.
then i said "I'm sure your feelings for me will fade too."
then he said "Hmm. I don't think so."
then i said again "I'm sure there are better girls out there.
he said "Well.. what can i do? You're the one i like..."
then i was just "Oh... i see." [i was actually surprised and actually said 'Grabe yon.']

so then.. we rode a jeep.
HE TREATED ME AGAIN!! OH MAN!! DON'T BE TOO NICE TO ME! DON'T FINISH YOUR MONEY JUST FOR ME!
then while we're about to go home.. whee.. ==" he.. kinda uh.. hold my hand.
and i was like "Whoa."
so then.. i left him. and off he goes~

then as i went home my dad got mad at me.
he thought that guy was my boyfriend but no.
he said i should stop cosplaying. i was so mad that i cried so much at my room.

as i cried.. i suddenly fell asleep.

then when i woke up.. my dad knocked at my door. and my mom wants to talk to me through the phone.
she said why did i met with him? i said he's a friend from a cosplay group.
then she said i don't fucking know him so why meet him? then she suddenly said i should stop using the net and cosplaying then i cried so much again.

then my father talked to me and this shit and that.
i can't keep up already so i just apologized cuz i lied.
my dad hugged me while i was crying so much [i still want to cry right now though]
man...
anyway.. he said it'll be fine.
i can still use the net but not that long anymore.

so today.. while typing this.. i was talking to him.
sigh..
he said he already uh.. missed.. uh.. me.. so .. much.
sigh.. i don't really feel anything. but he told me he'll wait. [i won't be looking forward for that though, i'm just gonna make myself sad]

so.. that's it. i'm gonna cry again at my room.
later~

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings