today.. he apologized to me.
he didn't reply.
then i thought i already have figured it out.
he probably already has someone in mind.

so i told him "If you don't like me anymore, that's fine. i wasn't expecting anyway. so don't apologize"
then he said I wanna hang out with you but my GF would scold me.
i was liek Whoa....


i didn't reply for a long while.
cuz i was really shocked. okay let's say i was a little hurt.
man.. i thought i'm right for not answering him ASAP. i suddenly thought he wants to have a GF that bad.
so i just told him that i'm so glad for him.
suddenly i thought it's awkward.

then i told him
You know.. i really want to tell you this. Please don't be mad.
I was really shocked when you told me. But maybe.. not too, because i already noticed.
But you know, i suddenly thought you want to have a GF that bad. 
Okay let's say.. i got mad a little.
But i thought why should i be mad? we're not even in a relationship.
i even told you not to wait for me cuz i dunno my feelings for you yet.
Cuz i don't want you to have this hope for nothing.


To be honest i was so pissed at you because you don't talk so straightly. 
But now that you told me you have a GF, i'm so glad for you. 
Told you, your feelings for me would fade too.


Well.. i just want you to know anyway. Cuz i really wanna tell it to you.
Please don't be mad at me. I was just thinking on how am i going to tell it to you.
Oh and i'm not mad anymore. That was awhile ago.


then he didn't reply anymore.


anyway.. what i wanna say was..
i was really shocked. kinda hurt.
but i'm glad i didn't expect much.
to be honest.. i was stalking him. and i saw him talking to her this and that.
he wasn't even talking to me much anymore.
then i thought maybe, yeah definitely. he doesn't like me anymore.
LOL! AFTER 1 WEEK THEN YOU ALREADY FOUND SOMEONE YOU LIKE!!!
die bitch.

really. to be honest i'm still kind of pissed. I hate those kind of person..
GAAAH!!! i dunno what to do.
all my feelings we're on my twitter account. LOL i was.. saying such bad words.

tagalog:
grabe naiinis talaga ako sa kanya. ==" sorry.. i dunno how to express this in english.
sigh.. ayoko talaga sa mga taong gaya niya.
good thing di na ako ATAT magka-BF.
AYOKO NA RIN SIYA MA-FEEL!
fuck this.

UPDATE:
sabi niya sa akin kung pwede ba daw kami lumabas. ayos lang daw sa GF niya.
FUCK! WAG MO NA NGA AKO ISAMA DYAN!! PAPATAYIN KITA EH!

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings