[BASED ON MY NOTEBOOK PT.2]

(Still August 22, 2012, Wed.)
so anyway, let's see~~
I dunno wae but i find it hard trying to cope up with my friends.
Let's~~~...? divide them.
First, Clariz, she keeps on talking about her online life. And to catch up with her, i try to at least give stories too but she's usually the ones to talk.
Jigz, well... she's a very busy woman. She's kinda focused on her school life.. =="
William... too focused on Nicole. He loves her too much.
Jerome... he's fine. LOL! i get my resources from him sometimes.
Nikki.. she's so random. I'm just glad that she opens up with me. But there are really times when i find her so...? hard to tell. Hmm~ what's the perfect word? Sometimes annoying.
Then Let's add Jamaica. I really find her face funny. But we both have different likes. She's more onto Western and Bieber. Unlike me.

Wow... my friend's are that countable... ( ; _ ; )
I really have to socialize with others but... how? ( ; _ ; )
Renny-chii and Kino-chii~~ I miss you.. sigh..

I'm with my friends sometimes but... i notice i'm usually at the edge. I'm always being left behind. I dunno how to catch up with them. I also notice how i mostly just listen to them and liek "Hey what're you doing?" then if they didn't notice me, i'd just go back to my sit. i'm kinda sad about it. Really.. i'm starting to feel empty again.

If ever they read this, i don't mean any harm. But.. i dunno.
i suddenly have this feeling that there's something wrong. i really don't know..
i feel so lonely.

i wanna be friends with others but.. i really don't know how. i don't know much stuffs. why...
why am i like this? i really hate this part of me... i just realize how.. no.. well..
i've always known that i'm always like this but.. i'm not doing anything.
i don't know if they would call this being SHY or what but..
i don't really feel anything. I don't feel shy, i just don't know what to do or say.
so i think i'm not really shy.

sigh... such a sad life for me.
i don't know but whenever i see my friends.. sometimes it makes me think how did i ever became friends with them? Just because we had something we like in common?
can't we be just friends because we understand each other...?
i dunno about that.
oh well..

i just.. don't have someone to talk to about these kind of stuff. i don't know if they'll understand too..
i feel like crying.

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings