hello there~~
like i said yesterday~~ i'll update my blog today about my sembreak memories.

let's start last Tuesday, Oct.30, 2012,
i was about to meet with someone cause he said he's sure he's gonna buy my PSP camera.
i went there with Nicole, it's in Trinoma.
as we went there, HE WAS FUCKING NOT THERE!!
i wasn't that upset at first.. but what i really need is money.
though i still have 300php, i wasn't in the mood to get mad.
so we ate at Burger King. it was.. okay. i was full.
then we roamed around.. In the end, Nicole treated me to the cinemas.. =="
now i have a dept on her. =="
we watched a local movie despite that i promised i'll never watch Local movies.
we watched "This Guy's In Love with You, Mare"
it was okay. it's funny.

then yeah~ we went home.
as i went home, i was once again stuck out side again.. *A*
luckily my cousin came home early so i got in.

so there.. that's it.

then last Friday (Nov. 2, 2012)
hmm we went to our relatives and it's so fucking boring.

then supposed to be today..
i was supposed to go to the mall to watch Wreck it Ralph.
but unfortunately i didn't. why?
cause my 3 FRIENDS watched it themselves.
and here i am.. even though i was the one who invited them to watch it, i was the one who wasn't there all along.
man would you believe that? ugh.
i was seriously sad about it. liek disappointed.
like why did they ever became my friends? do they even worry about me?
and ugh.. it hurts so much seeing their tweets.

and no dear bloggy, this is not a drama. =="
you know.. sometimes i really have to say that cause sometimes that's what other people out there thinks of this kind of shit and thinks it's just drama. ugh..
probably because they're so smart and rich that they don't have to worry for someone stupid as me.

and luckily i had this account private.
damn it.. really..
why did they became my friends...
sometimes i do regret meeting them but.. sigh.
this is such a bad thing to say but they all have their own worlds.
i know i know.. i do have my own.
sheesh.. we never collide.

and i don't wanna be plastic to them, so i'm still.. sigh.
i'm just tired of this.
i'm tired of being lonely. but guess i can't do anything about it.
with this only circle of friends that i have... i am nothing. i'm useless.

Labels: Extra:, My Feelings