Last Jan. 17, 2013
i went to school and it's our 2nd batch of our exams.
the moment i came i just didn't feel liek... talking to my friends. i dunno why.
i really didn't talk to them the whole day.
after exams i went home immediately.

the same thing happens on the next day, where they're suppose to watch Les Miserables or Life of Pi. i hear them talking. i don't know why but i just didn't feel like talking to them.

sometimes... seeing their tweets makes me think like it's me that they're talking about.
i feel betrayed even though i don't know if its me. but i just think that it's really me.
i even try to practice myself to never look back as in literally with my friends.
because i know they'll never catch up.
thinking about it makes me really sad.
(good thing i had my blog private, because if they read this.. they'll probably think i'm making some drama again. but really its not. it's what i just feel and is it wrong that way?)

i sometimes wonder if my friends are really my friends. it's really fun being with them.. really.
but i can't help but think that there's something they don't like from me. i just wish they'd talk.
Pfft. look who's talking. i'm doing the same thing too.. sigh.
i sometimes try to keep everything to myself... i don't want to tell everything because.. i don't want them to think that i'm too clingy.
am i too conscious about the things around me? sigh.
this is depressing.
i can't help think that  they hate me.

i'm sorry if i didn't talk to you guys these past few days.. really. during those days.. i was thinking if you guys are really my friends... i was thinking... if ever you'll find me having troubles or something.
but i wonder about that... my friends are... the type of friends that doesn't give a damn.
except for some of them... they're just really kind.
i should stop from this onwards. it's just making me cry.

Labels: My Feelings