well i just wanna say that...
for some reason i want to ignore my friends.
but no.. i wasn't really uh... intending to do that but.. ==" my gut feeling says that i should stay put.
so yeah.

today was such a sad day.

oh and... i noticed that from time to time.. my friends would... well... i notice my friends.. happy with their new lives. while me... ha. do i even really exist?
funny tho, i dying never crossed my mind. really. *smiles a little* does that mean i'm improving in life?
just a while ago i thought i don't want to make any friends.
that was my purpose on my 3rd year in HS. i don't plan on making bonds with anyone because i don't want to treasure anyone. good thing i did. but now.. on my last year in HS... graduating soon. my precious friends they're... vanishing.

i sometimes wonder if it's actually me who has the problem and because of me... i become depressed. but then... you can't blame me. i'm such a sad, lonely, awkward, boring... not so interesting person.

i seriously wonder how i manage to have online friends.

Labels: My Feelings