hmmm.. i... i am still sorry. you probably think its immature. yeah.. maybe.
anyway as much as i know, i am not ignoring you. i am..... not.. bothering my life with you anymore.
so please. i'll be fine. i'll be okay. and i'm pretty sure you'll be okay too. you're so much loved not only by me. but your other online friends. really i'll be fine.

.... in my Point of view, i think i'm trying to make myself pitiful. i'm sorry i'm just being realistic and imagining how other will look at it. but maybe for me, its not. i... i... i don't know what i'm even saying anymore.

but anyways what i want to say is that... oh wait i forgot. ugh screw that.
everything's going to be fine. losing 1 is not much of a loss, is it?? yes. that's right. so it'll be okay.

for all i know and understand.. i was hurt. but because its true, i was even more hurt of my own doing.. so... i'm sorry. i really won't bother with you and them. this is.... my punishment.

oh and one last thing... i don't hate you. and if you hate me, it's okay. and if you choose to not ever talk to me anymore, it's still okay. i'll be okay. i'll be fine. but not matter what happens, you're still my friend that i treasured but choose to let go. i'm sorry.
besides.... i'm used to this kind of thing anyway. its mostly my fault anymore. so it's also my fault making myself sad, depressed or whatsoever.

Labels: My Feelings